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I am posting this for reiyayel
And anyone else can fill it out too I guess ^_^

01. One word to describe me:
02. Your first impression of me:
03. Nicknames you would give me and call me:
04. Something you always wanted to tell me/ask me:
05. Would you repost this on your journal so I can fill it out for you?

~chuu

Hi^^
So, this is my random story for everyone.
My mom loves animals. We already have three dogs, three cats, a bird, and two horses as pets.
Then my mom tells me she is getting a piglet and two goats to start a petting zoo.
She got the piglet yesterday and named it Chopper. It is smaller than my toy poodle right now and will grow to be the size of a labrador with short legs.
I can not believe I now can say I have a pig as a pet. I never thought I would ever say that. lol

Ps-what do you think honey?

~chuu

I was given Uruha by xmirukiix <3

1. Do you like this person?
So much that when I think of him I get turned on.

2.How do you call this person?
Uruha or "uhhhh, so hot!"

3.Which colour do you associate with this person?
Purple, of course^^ or any color of wine

4.Looking at his/her character, what bloodtype do you think he has?
I don't know too much about that kind of stuff. All I know is whatever it is, it is my type!

5.What do you want to tell that person?
“Hey baby, I think you’re gorgeous. Your place or mine?”

6.Pick five of your friends and pick one person for them.
I have no friends...lol
If you want to do it then I'll give you a person
xlostheavenx -Reita :p although I don't think you'll ever read this haha.

Hi~
So, today I checked my other email account and I had an email from a publishing house.
I have been waiting to hear something back since July and finally I got a response.
I have wanted something, anything, even a rejection because then at least I would know I was on my way.
Well, it was a rejection letter.
It said: "Your story has an interesting premise, but will benefit from more editing and rewrites."
Well, I am glad my story sounds interesting to them but it is a bit frustraiting to hear it needs more editing because that is the hardest part and I have no idea what more to do to it.
But, I guess I will just see what the other publishing houses say and go from there.
It is cool to get a rejection letter but still a little sad to know I have so much more work to do and that I really have no idea how to go about it.
I guess that's all for now
~chuu

Hi^^
So, for three days we have been moving to a new apartment to live with our friend. I nearly died all those times. My body is just not built for lugging heavy cases around Tokyo and up stairs when there is no elevator or escalator.
The first night at the new place was okay but I was left alone since the other two went to a concert then out all night with friends. I was okay with it since I got to use the internet (only one person can use it at a time) but it was my first night in a strange place and I was all alone plus I stupidly watched a scary movie so I didn’t really like that.
Then the next morning I had to wake up early and go to the old place to finish cleaning and meet with the people to hand in keys and get the security deposit money. That all went fine and I took pictures of the cherry blossoms and they were so gorgeous but then I had to bring another case of stuff all by myself and that was hard. I could barely lift it and sometimes I had to carry it down stairs and no one stopped to help me even though I was practically falling down them.
I finally got back to the new place and carried it up like 4 flights of stairs or something and I was proud of myself for doing it and I was going to burst in and be like “I did it!” but they were still sleeping.
Now it is the next day and I am alone again. They are out at another concert and I am here. I like having time to myself, to listen to music and write and read and use the internet but they are out having fun and I am left here alone. I am not sure how I feel about it. I don’t think I am angry or anything maybe just a little left out I guess.
It is April 4th and I leave Japan on the 29th. I can’t believe it. I am excited to go home and see my family and pets and friends but I will miss living by myself, the ability to see bands I love so much, and the shopping. I want to come back but I am not sure when since I am poor. But when I go back home I will have to do something with my life. I have no plan for my future except become and author and that won’t happen overnight so…it will be back to working or maybe going to school. I have no idea and that is scary especially since I am turning 20 this year.
Can’t Uruha just fall in love with me? Haha, then I would be set and wouldn’t have to worry.
But the thing I hate the most about going back home is that Taka will not be with me. I have been basically inseparable from her for I think almost four years. I don’t know who I am away from her so I am scared of who that person will turn out to be.
Anyways, here is a meme for you~
And I would just like to make a call out to honey: I hope you are doing okay <3
~chuu

( m~e~m~e~ )

Hello^^
Well, I am bored again so that means a random rambling and a meme^^
Lately I can not write and it is very annoying.  I am having issues editing my book because I have not written it for a while so I feel like I have kind of lost my connection to those characters which makes me really sad and then I can't write any fics because I am not inspired enough.  I used to be able to be anywhere and just zone out and write in my head.  I used to write in my head all the time.  Now my mind feels blank and I feel like I am failing as a writer and that is the career I want so it is pretty scary.
I also feel a little...well I don't think bad it the word I am going for but it will have to work because I wanted to work on my shyness and maybe change a bit so I can be more outgoing but I have not.  I still am awkward when I first meet people and barely speak until I have gotten to know them better.  Is that bad that I would rather have a connection with someone first before I start chattering away to them? 
I guess that is all I have to say so onto the meme:

~chuu
 

( meme 200 )

Hello^^
So, I found a bunch of memes I stole from people on facebook so now I have lots to post but I will just do one at the moment.
I have not been up to much...during the week I usually do not go anywhere which makes me feel like of like a loser and very boring and a little lonely but this past weekend I did something everyday.
On Friday I went to Harajuku, then on Saturday I went out for supper at TGI Fridays, and then on Sunday I went out for supper and had pizza with fondue and a sundae for dessert, then went to a few arcades, then went out for karaoke all night.
In the past few days I have been feeling many different emotions that I either have not felt in a long time or have been trying to avoid. So in a way I am very happy but a little scared.
Anyways, onto the meme^^

( meme^^ )

~chuu

Hi~
Yes, I basically post a meme with every entry.
So, I have not been up to much...I got a dvd player that plays dvds from anywhere in the world which I am happy about and then I bought Rentrer en Soi's last live dvd and Sadie's new album.
Gazette is on the 10th of March so that is only like 4 days away. I am so excited!! I hope our seats are good^^
Anyways, that is about it...I only am in Japan for less than two months now. It makes me pretty sad to know I am leaving soon to go back to boring life in Winnipeg where I know I will be stressed and irriated and lonely but...I will have to do my best.
And then when I have enough money I can always travel again!


( MEme )
~chuu

I found this on gazette_yaoi and thought it would be fun~ lol
Now, my answer to these may be repetitive but...^///^ and it is quite interesting because I am obsessed with Uruha right now but I have to actually think and answer truthfully. Well, I don't have to but I will because I'm like that haha.

( Gazette meme )
~chuu

Hello^^
So, I am bored and that means I find a random meme to do. I have been getting mine from who ever posts them on facebook so they aren't that great but...it keeps me amused enough.
I really want to get my hair done but that means getting Taka to cut it for me and dye it for me. I apparently don't go to hairdressers anymore. I hope it will turn out.
I am getting very excited about seeing Gazette. For some reason all I can think about is that I want to be able to see Uruha and that I don't want to get knocked over by the other fans.
Well, I guess that is all...on to the meme.

( mEmE )
~chuu

Hello everyone~
Happy Valentine's Day^^

I hope everyone felt loved today and had a chance to smile

~chuu

Yes, I am doing another meme lol.  This one I stole from my cousin off facebook.  It doesn't look that interesting but I thought "oh well".  Today I got the new Neo genesis with Gazette and they are so so pretty. ^_^

~chuu

So, it is late and I am super tired but I am bored at the same time and you all know what I do when I am bored. Yes, a random meme. And now, I go to facebook and find people who have done one and steal thiers.
Hmm, how do I feel right now...many things. I feel lonely and kind of scared for the future. You know when it gets late and it's dark and all you have are your thoughts and they pound at you until you cry? I do that a lot.
But enough thinking and onto the meme.
( Give me an M! M!... )
Yay, now I can sleep. That took forever. Sorry if I seem a little moody. I just think way too much but this made me feel better. Have a great day/night.  Wish on those stars! 
~chuu

Happy Birthday Ruki!!~~



What I admire about Ruki is that he used to be a drummer and to go from a drummer to singing was a big step because now he is the frontman. And recently...well a couple years ago, from being a singer he became a vocalist. He didn't just sing, he understood the words he was presenting and felt them and entertained. I think he tries really hard.
Also, he does all the art stuff now.
Also, his moles are cute. lol
And he was hardcore when he was a teenager.



Hope you have a wonderful birthday!!

And in my mind he and Uruha are doing something extra special tonight ^_~


~chuu

Yes, it is that time again for another meme. 
Not much going on at the moment so I have nothing to ramble about.

( mmmmeeemmmmeeee )

 

Well, this one was kind of boring but...oh well...

~chuu

I have come to learn a few things about myself and after the long day I've had I've decided to be reflective as usual.
I don't hold true to things I thought I did in the past.  Like those things you are taught when you are little: "Don't have sex before marriage", "Don't smoke" blah blah blah.
Here in Japan it's like I've become a more carefree and yet angry person.  I never used to get mad at anyone, I used to forgive so easily and now I find I like drama.  I used to think it was stupid, that it was stressful, and now for some reason I feel I crave it.  Like...now I just want to yell at people...although I guess I still don't.
Maybe I am mad about some things, maybe I am sad about others, and maybe mostly I'm just scared.
***
After having seen Kyo I realize that I am loving Dir en grey again which feels so good.  I think I have forgiven Kyo.  Toshiya on the other hand.... 
***
Yes, I feel angry for some reason....

***

And Glass Skin English Version is like my my new favorite song because, to me, it sounds like every word he says is about to break into fragile peices of emotion.  But that's just me.

Ok, now I wanted to do a meme but for some reason I can't paste at the moment so I'm going to write it all out because that's the type of mood I'm in.  Also I'm in the mood for Uruha, because just looking at him makes me feel good.

 

( M-e-m-e )

So, I haven't posted in like 2 weeks mostly because I was posting about concerts and I haven't been to one since then so...
Anyways, so now I am going to ramble about random things and then do a meme I stole off my cousin's Facebook.
First of all, on Sunday we went to karaoke. There was me, Taka, Bene, Robbi, some other guy, Yasu, and a host named Yuki. Now, I never sing when we go to karaoke which most people probably think is weird but it is still fun to listen to everyone else and sing along with songs you know. I actually would love to sing but...I am too scared. I work myself up so much about it to the point where I just can't do it. It is actually quite sad. I fear being embarrassed as well so that is another thing that makes me fear it. If I could change something about myself it would be that I wasn't so scared so I could just sing and not care.
So, while I was sitting listening to people, feeling a little left out, Yuki came over and was talking to me but...I could not understand a word he said until he asked if I could understand and I said no. Then he hit me. I felt so bad though because he was trying so hard and I really would have liked to talk with him.
Throughout the night he kept trying to talk to me but it just didn't work. He did his host thing of touching me and feeding me chips and stuff. Honestly, that made me much more happier than I had been all night. I like attention apparently. No wonder girls go see those hosts.
Anyways, I just felt so bad I couldn't understand him. It made me feel sad and stupid.
***
Another topic: I am a worrier. I can't help it. I think way too much about things and have issues just letting things happen. So, my sister seems to have changed so so much since I left Canada and I worry about her because I have taken care of her when my parents were not there and I have tried to be a good role model even though I probably am not in some ways.
Anyways, I just want her to make smart choises. I think being a teen is a good learning experience, you go through a lot and some turn out ok and others don't. I just hope she's one of the ones who does.
I am afraid that when I go back to Canada I won't be able to stand her.
***
Isn't this getting sappy? Well, another thing I worry about it finding someone. I guess I just think I never will. That I'll never be able to find that person that can give me all I want and I can give to them in return.
Also, I worry about my writing. No publisher has responded yet. I would love a rejection letter, just to know they read it. I will frame that rejection letter and hang it on my wall.
Anything to say I'm moving forwards.
I feel like I am at such a stand still in life.
And it is fucking boring.

( MEME~ )